Tired.

I’m tired of being in pain.

I’m tired of pretending not to be in pain so others will feel more at ease.

I’m tired of explaining why I’m in pain.

I’m tired of explaining how pain works.

I’m tired of not being able to sit without pain.

I’m tired of having to do physical therapy & take meds & use ice in order to sleep.

I’m tired of taking precious time out of my day to deal with any of this.

I’m tired of people saying they feel bad for me. I don’t want sympathy. I want solutions.

I’m tired of doctors.

I’m tired of medical bureaucracy.

I’m tired of my situation being demeaned by those who don’t bother trying to understand it.

I’m tired of being depressed, because depression is the BFF of pain and they always hang out together.

I’m tired of being tired all the time, because pain is exhausting.

I’m tired of people thinking that because I can’t or shouldn’t do one particular thing that somehow it means I can’t do something else that’s totally unrelated.

I’m tired of being weak from not being able to exercise as much as I’d like.

I’m tired of thinking about pain.

I’m tired of managing pain.

I’m tired of being discriminated against because of the pain (technically classified as an invisible disability, although most people don’t understand what that means either).

I’m tired of reading stuff like this.

And I’m tired of writing about it.

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